Got loads, all stemming from childhood and teenaged years.
- Wish I pulled myself away from my problems at school and at home, to a library or something and doubled down on my GCSEs. I wish that I followed that all the way to a masters.
- I wish I kept myself in shape. I used to be a thin, weak kid but I was a good runner at least. I started eating too much shit as a teenager and stayed on the console or PC playing games or watching porn. Developed many, deep red stretch marks on my body as a result that terrified me and shattered an already fragile ego. I only bathed and brushed my teeth once every week or so too.
- Wish I never became addicted to pornography. I had big problems with it for over ten years, staying up all night, looking at porn for hours and edging for hours at a time, three or four times a night. I looked at some pretty extreme shit too, back in the day. A vile habit.
- Wish that I passed my driving licence with dole money. I used to sign on and off whilst hermiting at my mothers and instead of giving her money, I’d spend it on video games and food. A driving licence would have been practical and I could have found a job, but it would have also been something to aim for.
In my twenties, I wish that I used the little money that I saved up to travel, even if it was just city breaks on my own, here and there. I should have done more overtime to accomplish this.
I wish that I found my girlfriend sooner. She really turned my life around.
I wish I hadn’t spent so much of my life wishing that I was somebody else and being depressed and having morbid and suicidal thoughts. As far as I’m concerned, I lost a decade of my life to it.