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If you've really managed to not do drugs for several weeks and currently have some kind of roof over your head then you actually have pretty good foundation to turn your life around. Things might not be quite as bad as you think. You're not living under a bridge blowing dudes for dope. That's a major plus.
You have an internet connection. You could use that to help yourself find a job. Minimum wage jobs are possible to score even if you fucked up a little, and if you can't find one right away then you could look up all of the job placement/day labor type places in your area. Those people are literally paid to recruit out of work people to do odd jobs. You earn a little money, get some job experience, get into the practice of having a productive routine. Once you have that going, I would advise taking up some kind of hobby or exercise. Physical exercise is great for mood and over all health. I personally like to lift weights. For me, nothing relieves stress/anger/tension like lifting heavy. If you don't have access to a gym right now, that's fine. Even just going on long walks or doing lots of push ups is helpful. Other than that, my advice to you would be to try and let go of some of your resentment/anger towards your family and the rest of the world for not being how you would like them to be. Even if they are wrong, it isn't going to get you anywhere to get upset and waste time thinking negatively about them.
There was this story about a Vietnamese Buddhist that asked an American who had been a prisoner of war in Vietnam if he forgives his former captors. The American soldier said no, and the Vietnamese Buddhist told him that he hasn't truly been set free then. That story always sticks out in my mind when I see people spend too much time being angry at the people that they perceive to have wronged them. It doesn't do you any good to have that kind of resentment.
You have an internet connection. You could use that to help yourself find a job. Minimum wage jobs are possible to score even if you fucked up a little, and if you can't find one right away then you could look up all of the job placement/day labor type places in your area. Those people are literally paid to recruit out of work people to do odd jobs. You earn a little money, get some job experience, get into the practice of having a productive routine. Once you have that going, I would advise taking up some kind of hobby or exercise. Physical exercise is great for mood and over all health. I personally like to lift weights. For me, nothing relieves stress/anger/tension like lifting heavy. If you don't have access to a gym right now, that's fine. Even just going on long walks or doing lots of push ups is helpful. Other than that, my advice to you would be to try and let go of some of your resentment/anger towards your family and the rest of the world for not being how you would like them to be. Even if they are wrong, it isn't going to get you anywhere to get upset and waste time thinking negatively about them.
There was this story about a Vietnamese Buddhist that asked an American who had been a prisoner of war in Vietnam if he forgives his former captors. The American soldier said no, and the Vietnamese Buddhist told him that he hasn't truly been set free then. That story always sticks out in my mind when I see people spend too much time being angry at the people that they perceive to have wronged them. It doesn't do you any good to have that kind of resentment.