HAHAHA bullshit.
You clearly care so much about her opinion of you, and your ego is so weak and fragile, that the only response you can even think of is beating the shit out of her in a violent rage.
Risking your job, your livelihood, your freedom, everything.
You literally can't imagine a life without her and are willing to do insane things over her.
That means she literally has complete control over you and the only way for you to free yourself from her control is to kill her.
You crave acceptance from women and to be desired and wanted by women desperately.
Probably because you never had it before.