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Sorry to hear this man.
Just keep pushing forward. One step at a time. One day at a time. Stay focused on the micro, don't let yourself get consumed by the enormity of what you're going through
On November 21, 2021 I found my little bro deceased from an od. After begging my family for 4 years to intervene and help him. They didn't listen. 6 months later my sister calls me up to tell me she doesn't like anything about me and wants nothing to do with me. Her, her kids, her sisters and mom were basically my only family. 2 months after that I moved cities to propose to my best friend of 17 years. We had a long running promise to get married if we were single in our 30s. She cut me out of her life and never spoke to me again. I spent my entire life savings to move here and get her a nice ring. She was the person that I trusted more than any other on earth.
That was almost a year ago now. I'm broke. Thousands in debt because I doubled my housing costs to move here. I joined a local mma gym. I go to boxing/bjj/muay thai on a near daily basis and hope to be fighting soon. If I didn't join a gym I don't know how I would have avoided suicide. Every day for months and months I was completely consumed by self hatred and intensively negative thoughts. Joining this gym gave me something extremely difficult to focus on each day, which kept my mind off of myself. It also gave me brotherhood and plugged me into a big group of guys (and some cute girls).
Idk if any of that helped. I'm sorry for what you're going through. I know what it's like to feel completely alone. But you're always just a few short decisions away from not being alone. Keep moving forward bro.
Just keep pushing forward. One step at a time. One day at a time. Stay focused on the micro, don't let yourself get consumed by the enormity of what you're going through
On November 21, 2021 I found my little bro deceased from an od. After begging my family for 4 years to intervene and help him. They didn't listen. 6 months later my sister calls me up to tell me she doesn't like anything about me and wants nothing to do with me. Her, her kids, her sisters and mom were basically my only family. 2 months after that I moved cities to propose to my best friend of 17 years. We had a long running promise to get married if we were single in our 30s. She cut me out of her life and never spoke to me again. I spent my entire life savings to move here and get her a nice ring. She was the person that I trusted more than any other on earth.
That was almost a year ago now. I'm broke. Thousands in debt because I doubled my housing costs to move here. I joined a local mma gym. I go to boxing/bjj/muay thai on a near daily basis and hope to be fighting soon. If I didn't join a gym I don't know how I would have avoided suicide. Every day for months and months I was completely consumed by self hatred and intensively negative thoughts. Joining this gym gave me something extremely difficult to focus on each day, which kept my mind off of myself. It also gave me brotherhood and plugged me into a big group of guys (and some cute girls).
Idk if any of that helped. I'm sorry for what you're going through. I know what it's like to feel completely alone. But you're always just a few short decisions away from not being alone. Keep moving forward bro.