Jiu Jitsu
Worst session of my life, must've got tapped about 12 times total, just wasn't there. For technique we did getting someone's back then applying choke number 1, then we did getting someone's back and applying choke number 1 and when the other person defends by pulling our arm towards them we use their momentum to apply a rear-naked choke. Don't wanna talk about the rolling, just a disaster. I'm so dissapointed and angry and sad, this is my life, haven't felt like this in ages, I'm probably overreacting but really feel like utter shit. It fucking sucks to fail this much at something I want so bad, and work so hard to achieve. Edit: But, in a weird way, this makes me feel so alive, like I went to battle and was defeated. It's how I deal with these moments that will determine if I reach my dreams or not, and there will be many, whether I'd like to admit it or not. Tomorrow I need to come back stronger, more ferocious, more driven to ensure this never happens again. I know my plan is solid, I believe in it, so all I've 'gotta do is stick to it, and give everything I do my utmost dedication and focus, eating, sleeping, lifting, rolling, sparring, foam rolling, stretching, I will do everything better and more often than my rivals and I will be the best at this!
“It is inevitable that some defeat will enter even the most victorious life. The human spirit is never finished when it is defeated...it is finished when it surrenders.”