At the risk of boring people, let me get a little bit preachy. I may be off base about Nick, but I'll just lay in writing what I've seen in others. Simply put: people, sometimes, get weird fast when they, for the first time, feel they are aging
.
I was wondering, as I was approaching 35, just how does a middle-age crisis work, as I was pretty content with everything (career, finances, own business) and seemed to have a great marriage (understanding, better sex than ever etc.). But then, things got weird, as it seems my wife had one instead and got into partying, hanging out with her old friends bitching about their husbands etc. Seemingly overnight she changed from the sweet girl I knew and shed blood and tears with, carving our way for 11 years together, in something else. Got hit with a "no fault" divorce (for 3 days I thought it was a bad joke, that's how much I didn't see it coming.) No kids to be collateral victims, thank God - and nope, that wasn't the reason - we didn't want, at that time, children.
I don't think she's happier now, and a few told me that she's done worse, choosing her second husband. (What can I say? I'm not here to judge male looks and other, more important qualities - I'll leave that to women and gays.) That is, the few friends that haven't turned their backs on me after divorce
. (People can be funny at times; I just sighed and lowered the bar when it comes to "expectations from others".)
Now she's got a new life, and I, at 37, having survived the trauma, seem to have turned overnight into some kind of Adonis, much to my surprise, for the simple fact I take better care of myself. I never thought of myself as bad looking, am a natural with words (maybe not English, I'm not a native speaker). I don't party, so it's weird to suddenly have 20-year olds up to 40-year olds flirt with me, get stares on the street (no, I'm not wearing a clown nose). Hey, even got an obsessed stalker for a while!
I'm not MGTOW, but somewhat red-pilled...and sorry for the guys that really think there aren't any good women out there, as I've seen couples go through hell and fire for decades and still in love. Depends what you look for - and where.
Unless I find "the unicorn", I'll continue to live monk mode - no women, no porn. It's not easy, but it's my way and it has built my character more than I could've imagined.