I am not sure why you continue to retreat to "I can't look at the science..." You say that you are skeptical, but then refuse to look at the evidence, instead remaining fully reliant on approved medical authorities?
"Science," to me, is simply the study of available information. There is certainly information available that allows you to make nuanced deicisions without relying blindly on the majority or consensus. I know it is uncomfortable, believe me I know, and I can't really blame you for choosing to believe the consensus I guess.
Regardless, it seems we should probably wrap this up. I don't want to come off as a jerk and I realize that I am trending that way.
It was a pleasure discussing these issues with you, I appreciate your openness to discussion without the usual vitriol.