You seem like you are going over the cliff with your emotions. Get some sunshine, get some sun, and go out for a walk, you may have been cooped up on here too long.
As I state to others, this is not your real life and I get you are a fan but there are limits to fandom. You seem hostile and angry, and at the end of the day your personal health and your emotional health is what is the main priority. Take a breather from the site and play a game, talk to a woman, and or just relax.
This is the problem with this site, it can be toxic and you can pick up bad emotional habits if you are not careful. This place can be a cesspool of shit that has not flushed and entitled little shit stains who get supped up about fictional characters in their lives. This is not your real life and it should never take priority on your actual emotional health and stability.
Rest in paradise littler feller.