Apart from a summer job i briefly had last year, ive been unable to find full time employment since october 2021. Before i used to think that everyone wants experienced workers, yet nobody wants to give people experience. Now even having experience isn’t enough…
I just had a very good interview with a place i used to work for a few years ago with far less experience in the role than i do now, it went well I thought but then got the “sorry go fuck yourself, tinned beans dinner for you it looks like!” email.
i have a ton of experience, my cv/resume is good, my cover letter is good and i tweak it according to each application. But nothing…
the only time i started even getting interviews was a few months ago when i started lying/exaggerating my skills and experiences. what pissed me off about that though was the fact i was then getting follow-up interviews too for jobs that ignored my previous, non-lying application (so clearly i was competent enough for the job the entire time…)
unemployed for a year and a half now, i don’t know how i do it to be honest. I hardly live a life, cant afford to train, can’t afford clothes, can’t afford to just go out and do stuff most of the time. Nearly 2 years i’ve just had to waste prime years of my life rotting away in my house because i am forced to.
- money controls absolutely everything. I feel hopeless and helpless at the fact my entire life and wellbeing isn’t even up to me, but entirely in the hands of other human beings to decide if i get to work or not.
also, the amount of fucking retards i see working when im out and about.
At this point i feel like i will be forced to do some real scummy, desperate shit for money.
Fuck this shit. Ready to walk into the next place that rejects me and blow my fucking head off in the reception area and hopefully the janitor realises how lucky he is to be employed as he mops up all my brain matter.
the question though is “WHY?” What the fuck is this shit? Who is their ideal candidate? And more importantly “WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH ME THEN!?” instead of just telling me i wasn’t good enough with no further details so I can’t even learn from the experience, its like they think their interpretation of your interview entirely defines you, thats who you are and there’s nothing you can do to work on that. Warped.
i really wish i could just say “fuck it” and live like The Dude from The Big Lebowski but i can’t afford to buy the ingredients for a White Russian, i can’t even afford to live like The Dude…
I don’t want pity, I don’t want government money, I don’t want to be a bum. I just want to work and in a field i am more than qualified and experienced to do…