Nah, I'm saying I'm a pussy.
I know I am not a good looking guy and I live in the Pacific Northwest. AKA, the place that makes a lot of liberals in this country almost look like they're Donald Trump supporters with how they all paint their hair and shit.
It's even worse because of my second job being at a bar as a bouncer so you're constantly interacting with people and my brain starts doing the "are they friendly because that's their personality, they're drunk, they ACTUALLY give two shits or some combo".
Plus i work at the Courthouse as my main job so I can't risk much.